End of My Rope

I can remember my own mother telling me that she was about to “hit the end of her rope”.  I never really understood the analogy.  But now, as a mother as well, I have found myself using the same words, and I am pretty sure it has something to do with the unravelling of nerves.

Yesterday, I hit my own metaphorical “ropes end”.  After finally carving out some time to take a shower, I scrambled throughout the house frantically packing a bag so that my children would have everything they needed for their swim lessons.  Suits…check.  Towels…check.  The goggles that fit just the way my older son likes them…check.  My sanity…well…I don’t really use that anyway.

I grabbed the reusable shopping bags and my list since I was enlisting the help of my husband who would watch the kids swim while I did the grocery shopping.  I hurried the kids out the door, and we were off to the YMCA.  We arrived in time and even had a few minutes to spare.  That is until we went to exit the car and I realized I had left the swim bag at home.

I had come to the end of my rope.  It was a small, insignificant event that, in the grand scheme of things, really didn’t matter.  My nerves were not concerned.  I screamed and yelled like a child throwing a tantrum.  My husband, who had just pulled in next to us, asked what was wrong.  At that point it seemed like everything.

He sanely suggested we switch cars.  He drove back home, got the swim bag, and returned to the YMCA for our older son’s lesson.  I, on the other hand, had a complete meltdown in the parking lot.  I sat in my car and sobbed.  How had it gotten this bad?  I was short with my kids all day, and they didn’t deserve it.  I snapped at my husband, who, thankfully, has a much longer rope than I do.  And I was reacting to everything instead of using my brain to act purposefully.

Other than a definite lack of sleep, I was not able to pin my lapse of sanity on any one thing.  I took a deep breath (or two or three), bought a milkshake (because it makes me happy), and did the shopping.  During that time, I was able to gather up my rope and make a personal commitment to not let my rope unravel so easily.

The great thing about ropes is that, when you hit the end, you can always roll it back up and start again.  Today, my rope is a little dirty and worn.  But it is still strong, and it is probably a few feet longer than it was yesterday.

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